Today was fun, I know, a very mundane word to describe what had happened.
Ate tau-huay at rocher road, the supposedly nice wan-ton noodle (which turns out to be, normal for a wan-ton noodle) and yes the eff-ing nice and crispy bean curd tarts!
full till the extent that my stomach could burst if i stuff any food down again.
But i didn't have any muffins today! (was hoping for that~)


Bishi-bashi & streetfighter with genexoxo, nat & yalumpi, hahahahaha!
it's been like 2 years plus since i really go into an arcade and spent my coins there.
Yes, exciting! heh!
Had great fun bashing the machines up, hey no, wait!
The machines are old already, need to be rougher, then they will react better.
Ask nat, especially the stupid street fighter.



Aiyah!
I think I'm getting older, i mean i used to play LAN with cleff & qi when i were, say, 15 or 16 years old? I can happily go out of the LAN shop being the usual high and nonchalant me.
But today? I went out of the LAN shop feeling giddy and eeeeww, vomit-ty.
I'm old, old, old, old!
Sigh! Age, the inevitable enemy creeping on everyone's door without knowing.

Anyway, the whole outing was fun and dudes, you guys really really cheered me up! heh. Loves! Thank you for the great evening! (:


Something happened to me today.
Can't believe it, okay to be honest, i haven't been reading any newspaper since last week. Don't ask me why, I just feel very lethargic these few days. So i wasn't quite update about the H1N1 except for some gossips and rumors.
I don't even bother to check when it's just a few clicks away. =.=

okay okay, back to what i was saying.
I went home late, and when i reached home, my dad opened door and he stared at me.
So i was like "papa~" (just a usual gesture when i reach home, i call everyone except my younger brother.)
he looked at me for 1 minute, keep staring and he didn't open the door.
*Please note that i don't have any keys.
I then continued saying "eh, open the door leh?"
and he burst out raising his voice at me, "THE NEWSPAPER SAID YOUR SCHOOL CLOSED HOR, and why you go school, TRY TO LIE TO ME AND THEN GO OUT IS IT?! YOU GOT H1N1 OR NOT? HUH? GOT TALK TO ANYONE WHO HAS H1N1 OR NOT?!"
I was stunned, and i started replying slowly.
"No, I never lie to you, because i had school today and i went out with my friends, and i told mummy already. And i don't know whether my classmates got H1N1, because clearly i don't know how to differentiate who has it and who doesn't, it's not as if their face got write things like 'i have h1n1 or i don't have' so ya, can i go home now?"
and he replied "okay, don't go to your room or sit down ah! Straight away, YOU go bathe. And don't get H1N1 back, because if i were to get quarantined, my job will be in jeopardy."


True, when i think about it.
If i am going to get H1N1, i think i really will make my dad lose his job.
Furthermore, he's the sole breadwinner in the family.

I think the way my school deals with the H1N1 cases, clearly shows that they are incompetent of handling such stuffs.
The way the newspaper reported saying that RP was closed, it doesnt telly when the school is STILL functioning right now!
Hello? Mr Principle in RP, what are you tring to do?!
And the fact that my block, on the 6th level, someone is suspected of having H1N1 and i'm on the freaking 5th level, quarantine is no fun okay. Yes, i cant afford to be quarantined because of your incompetency of dealing such important stuffs.

My god.
Can somebody tell me that school suppose to be fun, challenging and safe?!
Just think of the big picture and stop focusing on maintaining the school reputation will ya?
I hope the MOH step in and disinfect the bloody germs-spreading school.
No, i am not looking forward to e-Learning and stayig 1 week at home doing nothing, but i think that health is wealth..


Overall, Just think about rit okay?!


Anyway, i am okay lah!
Don't worry too much! (:
Just a bit quiet because my attention seems to be very diverted these few days. hmmmm.
HAHA, yeap! (:
Good night, it's 0100 am now! =.=
SLEEP TIGHT PEEPS!

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Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me It is the most-requested column I've ever written."

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument.. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’ s, we’d grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

I'm still trying to learn those in green, give me some time will ya?

Some of them serve as a reminder, some of them as an encouragement. Yup. Oh well, I am human right? Needed something to get me through the problems. Everyone needed something to cope too. So, i'm not spared. heh (:

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Okay, I had a lot of flaming to do today.
Really a lot, but i'll just stick to a few, because i'm quite cool now.
These few days, i'm taking it step by step.
Since people said i'm always so rush to settle things.
I'll just chill & relax, take all the time in the world.
And you'll see how my slow movements can thrill you. (to a specific person)

I'm not really sad, just trying to clear up the messes in my head.
Ah, you must be thinking, "WHAT FOR? WHEN THINGS ARE ALL OVER?"
right?
Nah, i just feel the need to do closure and then, put all the things behind me and move on.
I am feeling much better. Really better.

shit, i dont feel like blogging.
just list some shits down.
- transformers 2
- me, myself.
- pp

My reflexes are slow these few days.
Dont blame me if i'm slow or unresponsive.

The fact that i'm trying so hard doesnt change the current situation.
So i'm going to stop trying.
really just stop and just be the normal self back.
you know, run back on my track again.
Woohoo.

however, i can't stop trying.
I love to measure how deep is the water, or in simple words,
I just love to play with fire.
Not in the aspect of agitating people, but more towards myself.
For instance, i know this isnt going to work and i've already weighed the consequences myself.
but i'll just try it, and all the times, it fails.
My heart break, but then again, i'm ready to bang the wall.
I never learn from mistake, do i?


How ridiculous.
Sometimes i laugh at my stupidity, am i really that stupid?
Otherwise why am i trying so hard?
WHY?
When clearly the other party isnt interested, Why the fuck am i still trying?


Hmmmmm :/



I'm just not in the mood to blog. so i'll just let it bits and pieces be all around.
i will clean it up later. TTYL.
Going to sleep.
ciao arseholes,bitches and whatever.
let's do hook up in our dreams then.

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I can't think of what to write anymore.
And my mixed emotions in my heart is getting stronger and heavier as time passes.
I can't sleep.
I can't eat.
I can't dream.
I can't do anything constructive to my life anymore.
And i desperately needs those emotions to get off my chests/head/heart now.

i've lost my momentum with eveything that i've wanted in the first place.
Everything now seems to be in a blur.


I will just go back and play my Sims 3. Sigh

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Will you feel the same way about me as I feel about you?
Nah, I doubt so.

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I am constantly praying that i would get better.
But this time around, nothing works.
And i guess, I guess it's time to get independent now (:

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I'm damn depressed now.
I wonder how am i going to school with crutches and everything.
I don't know la!

How do I go school?
How do I go back too?
EVERY WEEK FOR 4 TIMES!
fuck. this is fucking sick.

How I hate myself for being so clumsy.
fuck.

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就好像在一个渔夫在浦鱼，
浦到一袋满满的可爱热带鱼，
可是没有一个是你。

Something corrupted my mind.
I need to get it off. URGH.

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I can't really think properly now.
My head is a mess; my thoughts ain't straight.
Shit, I'm troubled.
Again.


Anyway,
I hope review will be good for me.
So that I won't have to cast my leg to school.
"Left Fifth Metatarsal Fracture" wtf.
I can't get over my clumsiness, i'm just so suay!


I sneezed more than 40 times today; in just 1 hr.
Now, i just want to chop my nose off,
use a little sucking machine to suck ALL my mucus out.
Cut my nose hair, make it clean.
Whatever, just make me stop sneezing.
That person who is missing me that is causing me to sneeze like mad;
pleaseeeee, Stop missing me now! :p
okay "W" shape on your head now. hahaha


Anyway, i was still thinking about what Shi Yong, Sikai & Stella's comments.
about me la dey~
They were in awe that i've changed so much since secondary school.
Am i really that bad in secondary school?
Am i a tyrant?
AAHHAA, i think i am way better okay!

Did i two time before?
I'm not a playboy girl okay, i'm super loyal to boyfie one.
hahaha.
and oh fuck, ashley listen!
I'm not a bitch that's desperate! HAHAHAHA.
I fell in love too easily lah, and i follow my heart~
At least i tried :p
I'd rather regret what I did than regret what I were too scared to do.

Did I impose such a bad impression on you guys?
Holy shit. hahaa.
I didnt know i'm such a let down in the past.
Oh well, i've changed for the better.
heh heh.


NOW!
I sneezed, i coughed, it feels like i'm choking on something;
the next moment trying to spill it out.
and great, my voice is coarse now!
VIOLA!
Damn the weather!



AGAIN 2012, regarding abt this day,
I'M FREAKING OUT AGAIN! ARGH!

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You were born on 9th day of February 1990, Friday.

Your Life :

You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow.

Your Love :

You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children.

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When we can't surmount the thoughts in our head, it starts to eat you up inside.
It starts eating and eating, gobbling down on everything they could get of you, your soul and your spirit.
Eventually you lose sight of the light, you lose sight of the sane-self you used to be.
Soon you will befriend with insanity, with the devils and hell become your home.
You can't find a way back.
You get lost.
You get paranoid about stuffs thinking everyone gonna do you harm.

And you ponder why life sucks so much now.
Why wouldnt it be better, why responsibilities seems so heavy at this moment.
You, this devil, long for someone to help you out.
You need someone to revert back to your old self.
Yet, because you feel that you can't even find yourself, how can somebody find you back for you when it's supposed to be your own problem?
The devil starts eating herself up.
And soon, you will know that whatever you did seems so unfamiliar to you, it's so not-you.
You can't recognize yourself in the mirror now.
You wanna stop, but the devil in you can't stop.
You wanna think properly, but the stress you gave yourself makes you think otherwise..
When will you stop and give yourself a break?

That's what "thoughts" do to us.



That's why i'm keeping faith.
I will be better (:
There ought to be something to keep us all alive.
For Me, I believe in God & Angels
No, i'm not preaching.
It's not about religion issue.
It's something that keep me alive in the midst of darkness.




What about you?

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Shit ass, I hope I won't be in cast when school reopen.
Otherwise I might need to find partner to go school with.
Most probably I need to ask CheeBoon & Michelle to accompany me to school.
Damn irritating!
And Cheeboon actually don't mind, so sweet of him to do that :D
Thanks ah boon!


And now i'd understand why they say painkillers are addictive.
and i think i'm addicted to it.
I'm using it to get rid of the pain.
And it helps because i'm like on drug every moment.
I get sleepy and tired.
And i sleep everyday.
So, i forget about the pain, viola!
HAHAAH!

Didnt eat much thou,
can't have my appetite back.
It just feels like someone played me out recently.
And i feel super annoyed because of that person,
I fell down because of that person too.
Stupid or what?
VERY.
Okay, problem lies with me when i fell down too.
My eyes were blind.
Argh fuck.
So whatever it is, I don't care anymore.


I'm gonna try on another diet, but i'll need to drink more milk first.
Because of my broken bone.
I need to recover fast.

Arghhh.
After this 1 week of rest, i officially hate going to work.
i love the rest. and being myself.
Is either I be myself or nothing at all. (:


All of us have had the experience of a sudden joy that came when nothing in the world had forewarned us of its coming - a joy so thrilling that if it was born of misery we remembered even the misery with tenderness.
~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Wind, Sand and Stars, 1939, translated from French by Lewis Galantière

This quote is pretty (:

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I am stuck at home;
given that i have 1 week not going anywhere because of my fractured foot & not knowing which bone has broken.
I have lots of time at hand and i need to spend it wisely.
I need to do PP, study for tests & I have 3 (Jodi Picoult) books to read. :D

Thou, I had already started on another book "Red-Light Nights, Bangkok Daze", but it's pretty much about why we should give prosititution a 2nd chance & not discriminate them.
But the point is, I discriminate alot on prosititution (the job not the people) and the more I see this author trying to side it, the more disgusted I feel about it.
I know, prosititution is the world's oldest profession. And the girls are pitiful because they have no money, thta's why they joined this profession.
Yet, I'm sorry, I just can't accept it.
No doubt, it's a good book, but i'mma have to let it go.
Just-so-not-my-taste. Yeap.


I'm so excited, because my Threadless Tees are coming all the way from, CHICAGO, IL, US!!
Weeeeee~ Tell me i'm gonna get my parcel in another 1-5 days :D
WAHAHAHAHAHA.


With this damn cast on my leg, there's lots of restriction that i'm having!
I can't even walk say run,
I can't even bathe properly,
I want to go downstairs but i can't!
Is either i need to be wheeled or I need my clutches.
my whole foot itch but I can't scratch it!

Fuck, I hope it heals faster! Because if i'm still in cast, i'll think about skipping school.
I'm damn serious.

And life is boring for me now. HAHAA


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Quote of the day:

I've been looking at this quote for quite a long time, and trying to deciper which part i'm at, and i'm still figuring it out.
I think i belonged to the 2nd part. Or maybe not.
I don't know. :(


"Those who can laugh without cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad." ~Norm Papernick

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You won't believe what i went through today
Because i can't believed it too.

This is what had happened to me early on.
Sigh, now i can't even play badminton.
Swimming nor jogging.
SIGH.

Today, i went down the stairs and fell down.
Many people would say "aiya, you must be sms-ing hor"
The truth is, my handphone is in my pocket!
I just fell down, just like that okay!
Okay, i admit that i was thinking of someone at that time.
But it was fractured, can you believe it?
Just a few steps missed.
SIGH.

FML!

Just because my eyes do not tear does not mean my heart does not cry.
And just because I pretend to be strong does not mean there's nothing wrong.
Often, I choose to pretend I'm happy,
so I don't have to explain myself to people who would never UNDERSTANDS.

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Random thoughts that lingers for today (perhaps tomorrow):
I'm just a typical plain Jane, with giant dreams to achieve;
yet midget abilities to even start with.
I am pretty much similar to a lost kid at the cross-road junction;
waiting for someone to get me home.
Home-sweet-home, anyone?


Thought of the day:
Well i am what you see,
I am not what they say,
but if I turned out to be,
could you love me anyway?

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I am getting more and more psycho as i'm getting older.
Fook me.
I realised I have alot of fetish going on.
And yes, I can't help but to follow the flow.


And these few days,
it's my suckiest day ever.


Believe me.
Work has been very very very very very energy-sapping.
They really make full use of my $7 per hour.
But nevertheless, I never failed to look on the bright side of life.
FOOK, i'm lying.
I did go to one corner and emo.
But i'm alright lah. Sigh
FML.


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Random Thought:

I never know that a perfume speaks strongly of one's character.
My favourite smell is freshing & a lil bit of floral.
How does it speaks of me now?

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Reflection of the day:

No one is going to care what you like or what you don't like.
So, the best thing you can do for now,
is to stop showing that you care.

Just like how i need to stop caring for others;
and get a life. FML.

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My daily dosage, for now:
www.fmylife.com

My weekly sunday dosage, for now:
www.postsecret.blogspot.com


Te Amor,
Qinghui

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