xiii: you said move on (where do i go)

title: darkness
date: Saturday, June 6, 2009
time:12:42 AM

When we can't surmount the thoughts in our head, it starts to eat you up inside.
It starts eating and eating, gobbling down on everything they could get of you, your soul and your spirit.
Eventually you lose sight of the light, you lose sight of the sane-self you used to be.
Soon you will befriend with insanity, with the devils and hell become your home.
You can't find a way back.
You get lost.
You get paranoid about stuffs thinking everyone gonna do you harm.

And you ponder why life sucks so much now.
Why wouldnt it be better, why responsibilities seems so heavy at this moment.
You, this devil, long for someone to help you out.
You need someone to revert back to your old self.
Yet, because you feel that you can't even find yourself, how can somebody find you back for you when it's supposed to be your own problem?
The devil starts eating herself up.
And soon, you will know that whatever you did seems so unfamiliar to you, it's so not-you.
You can't recognize yourself in the mirror now.
You wanna stop, but the devil in you can't stop.
You wanna think properly, but the stress you gave yourself makes you think otherwise..
When will you stop and give yourself a break?

That's what "thoughts" do to us.

That's why i'm keeping faith.
I will be better (:
There ought to be something to keep us all alive.
For Me, I believe in God & Angels
No, i'm not preaching.
It's not about religion issue.
It's something that keep me alive in the midst of darkness.

What about you?

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