xiii: you said move on (where do i go)

title: changed.
date: Thursday, May 14, 2009
time:12:26 AM

I love how jogging makes my mind clear.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not jogging to lose any weight.

I'm jogging to keep my senses alive.

Otherwise, i would really love how a smoke can evoke my senses.

but no, I'm a changed person.

I'm not going on that path again.

I am still unclear of what i want.

Maybe I am still an ignorant young girl living my own world.

Yet i know whatever I'm fighting for now is worth it.

Trust me, i won't let you guys down.

*winks*

To the contrary,

I am constantly finding myself in dilemma.

When letting go is so much harder than holding on,

do we let go or do we hang on?

But like what Xuanhui said, "no one can ever replaced the memories"

yea, it's true.

Maybe what i think we can do now, is to bury the memories deep inside our heart.

So deep that we cannot dig it out again.

Sometimes it feels as if someone is pounding a knife inside my heart and it gets so pain that i couldn't breathe.

I think i am alright right?

It's normal right?

Yea, i guess so.

You tell me that you miss me,

but the feeling ain't right there.

I should be happy, yet the feeling feels so barren now.

I could feel almost nothing.

I am really changing to be a better person.

Give me some time.

Give me a lil faith.

I can do it,

without you (:

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